Are You Living Your Destiny?

I have not been! I have wanted to for quite some time now, like for the last eight years! Sorry…I tend to get upset when I think about how much time I have wasted not being everything God desires me to be while on this earth. Now, from searching the Lord in this season, I find that I am entering in to my destiny. Finally… I’m saying that like he kept it from me and actually I have been refusing to step into it. I can’t believe I’m actually saying that but it’s true. I have been hiding from my destiny because I know how much it will cost. What’s so sick about that is whatever it cost won’t compare to what I will receive. So exactly what do I think I’m giving up? MY WILL. I can not hide the fact that even though I realize that victories in God in my life have been many, it’s still hasn’t convinced me to give up my life to him. What in the world is preventing me from yielding my everything to him?

So, now it’s time for my honesty that I always share in this blog. My questions back to God are: What are you going to make me do if I yield my complete will over to you? Are you going to make me invite the neighbors over every Sunday for fellowship in a house filled with peace? (Sundays are my day to recoup for the week Lord.) Are you going to make me get up in the middle of the night to pray a lot? Are you going to make me fast more? What are you going to make me do!!!

He said to me that he is going to give me LIFE. What does life mean? It means everything you need life to be for you and your family. What do you need in your life? I know what I need. I need my marriage to be successful and last. In this day and age that is really a big prayer. Sometimes in my marriage I can literally feel the enemy trying to find a way to target my marriage for destruction and the battles are hard and long fought sometimes, and sometimes the Lord will reveal the exact plans of the enemy and I cut him off quickly. I need my children to become successful as adults. Right now it does not “appear” so, but God and only God can do what I need for my children’s success. I want my ministry career, my books, my bills paid, and abundance to do whatever God would need done in the kingdom.

So what’s the difference between what I’ve been living and what he’s calling me to? If you remember my blog regarding the all knowing parent trying to draw us in because he knows there’s a better path but it’s our choice to take it. Well that all knowing parent God, is showing me that yes, you are a prayer warrior and that is why you have witnessed by blessings and many victories over you and your family over the years. But have you ever had COMPLETE VICTORY? When he said that I knew exactly what he meant. They were hard fought victories. Hard because I wasn’t completely sold out so God had to do a lot of convincing me of his goodness. Then you mix that with the condemnation I would put on myself and that would slow me down. Not to mention when I was not as spiritual as I would like because I was distracted by life, trials, or nothing. On my next blog I will discuss what complete victory looks when we yield our lives to him. He’s shown me and I want it!